I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster. Overly sensitive and moody. I’m trying to chalk it up to hormones and aunt flo. But it could very well be this bullshyt they call winter.
I don’t do well w/ continous grey days, snow, ice, and frigid temps. I long to wear open toe shoes and a sun dress or a tank and capris.
I want the sun on my face, beating down on my back until my skin starts to tingle. I want to leave a building and start to defrost from the a/c.
No tights under my pants, no socks, no fleece, no hats, no scarves, no ice scrapers, no defrost,no heaters
instead I want..
Ice cream lunches, picnics in the park, kids running barefoot, being chased by ian bc I stuffed ice under his shirt, rainbows, sudden spring showers, barbques, camping out on the deck w a book, sleeping w/o clothes under just a sheet and a fan, mosquitos, outdoor concerts and events, flowers, paddleboat rides, windows open, breeze blowing, music in the air…
Winter last too damn long,,,
Just generally in a foul mood.
Talked to my dad earlier, in this way we are similiar… we both are lovers of the sun/water/summer/spring/
We are both cancers
We are both homesick
We are both plotting an escape out of the tundras we currently call home.
Lately my prayers have gon something like this..
Thank you for this day. But does it REALLY have to be THIS cold? Is the snow/ice/below50 temps really necessary? I mean I know you are running ish and I prolly shouldn’t be questioning your seasons, but dang! I’m not feeling this winter stuff. *sigh* thank you for my ian, my friends in real life and online, and my family. Meet our needs. Bless us according to your plan. And if I have any kinda rank b/c of good deeds done can you hook a sistah up with some 60’s today? In jesus name amen
Now after typing that out I see why He been ignoring my ass.