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I painted this picture last night (Monday) it’s going in my bedroom. I think she’s a little sexy. I’m a lotta sexy. Ian likes sex. I think its a fit. It should go well with the painting I did at Sips n’ Strokes with Adrienne. Don’t you?

Anywhoo.. question for those cancer women, Toni, Keli…

I know we all love our little shell and it’s often our preferred place to deal with out ish. Most times (speaking for myself here) I don’t want to be bothered, I just need some time to do my thing, work it out, and when I come out I’m generally Good!

Well that just most of the times, for me… however I’ve found that there are sometimes, juuuuust sometimes when I want people to express their concern. Pull me out of my shell. Ask me what’s wrong, Actually WAIT for an answer. You know, invest a small portion of their time to check on ya girl.

Do y’all find that to be the case with you? Is that just part of flling under the cancerian sign? Or is it just my weirdness?

I’m ok being weird.
I’m glad that Ian understands my weirdness. That he can see through my tough shell. That he knows when I need him to hug me. And when the tears won’t stop flowing, he seems to know exaclty what I’m saying. Even if I use his shirt as a tissue.
Eternally grateful that even when I feel completely isolated, I know that I’m not alone. That God is there for me. That HE will never leave me.

There aren’t many who will “get me” and I understand that.

Anywhoo.. time to get dressed and bounce.

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  1. Well that just most of the times, for me… however I’ve found that there are sometimes, juuuuust sometimes when I want people to express their concern. Pull me out of my shell. Ask me what’s wrong, Actually WAIT for an answer. You know, invest a small portion of their time to check on ya girl.

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    I don’t think that’s just you, I think that’s people in general. Everyone wants that. Well I know it’s what I’d like from time to time. it doesn’t always happen. Everyone isn’t like that.

    I’m glad you have Ian there with you, glad he get’s you.

  2. This is people in general. We want others to listen. The key is getting your core people around you who you can trust to listen and hear you out. That is what’s key. Not everybody is worthy of dealing with what’s going on deep inside of us. Only a chosen few. Find those peeps, Patrice. And you’ll be okay.

  3. Love the painting….

    I am so glad Ian gets you….it is lonely out here for those ‘non-get-able’ people

  4. Love love the painting…

    and yes, it has a little sexy vibe to it.

    @ ques…

    I totally get you. I feel the same way…it’s like, sometimes I just want to be left alone, but I expect those close to me to know when I need them to be in my mix. My parents seem to always know when I need someone to reach out…I think its because we’re nurturing spirits, we take care of others, so much so, that those around us sometimes forget that at times, we need someone to take care of us. Not too mention, I think that sometimes some are afraid to come to me when I’m in that place, because they don’t know how I will react…but yeah, regardless, sometimes I need someone to reach out and pull me out of my “safeplace” within.

    You’re fortunate to have someone that gets your weirdness. 🙂

    1. “I think its because we’re nurturing spirits, we take care of others, so much so, that those around us sometimes forget that at times, we need someone to take care of us. Not too mention, I think that sometimes some are afraid to come to me when I’m in that place, because they don’t know how I will react…”

      Well said and I totally agree.

  5. That painting is awesome, Patrice. Is there anything you can’t do? I especially love how ol’ girl has no eyes, but I still see her giving a fierce come hither look.

    I’m a Cancer and it’s not just you that feels this way. The ask me what’s wrong and wait for an answer part is lovely when it happens (not often). Sometimes it gets tiring always being there for others and the one time when you really need them to be there for you in return, they aren’t. It’s disappointing and is probably one of the reasons why I like being in my shell so much.

    And while God always has my back, sometimes it’s comforting to have someone physically there to show support, to rub my back and tell me it’ll be OK. Lucky for you you have Ian. 🙂

  6. So talented you are!

    I’m not a Cancer (Virgo here) but my preferred method of “dealing” is just to be left alone. People asking me what’s wrong or wanting to pull me out of a funk I’m in just seems to annoy me more.

  7. I too am a Cancer and I so know what you are talking about. Yes, most times, I do want to just be left the hell alone 🙂 But then there are the times when I NEED someone to nurture and care for me, ya know give me what I have been giving them. Doesn’t happen often, but when it does, I’m glad I’ve got someone like you’ve got Ian. But my main man, I know He has always got my back and can rest easy in the bosom of His love. You know, what more could I ask for?

    Love the painting!

  8. Wanting to be heard is definitely an issue for me. Especially since I am single, both parents deceased, and no siblings. I don’t have the “normal” support system of people checking in with me just because they love me. It can be really frustrating having to self-motivate all the time! This time of year is especially hard with the birthday coming up. Whew! I just may have to blog about this myself! lol

  9. Hello

    I swear I found your blog my mistake but knew who you were from Adrienne’s blog. I had to leave a comment because I loved that painting. You are very talented. I can see why you and Adrienne are friends both of you are really talented women.

    God Bless
    Carla

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