Actions speak so much louder than words. SO FREAKING MUCH LOUDER.
When you say you love someone but you treat people who supposedly mean nothing to you with grand greetings and inquiries about their day and wishing them the best. but when you speak to the one you love you are cut and dry then it makes me wonder how you really feel.
The worst feeling in the world is when you know you’re not wanted. when the person you love treats you like an option and something to do in their past time THAT SHIT FUKCING HURTS
when what you SAY contradicts your ACTIONS. why bother in the 1st place.
I may not always have the right words to explain how i feel. I may not always be ablt to pinpoint the exact action thats being done to make me feel a certain way. I may be hypersensitve BUT dammit if i love you and care about you I cant allow you to just treat me any ole kinda way and not say something about it.,
i make mistakes. i hate change, i hate to be wrong but when my actions be they intentional or not cause the people i love to hurt I will DO evertything in my power to stop that.
my feelings are so hurt so hurt.
when you give your best and its not good enough and dpesnt seem to be appreciated and poep;e treat people who supposedly mean nothting to them in a more congenial manner than they treat you. it hurts REALKLY badly.
i have not been perfect i have lied, i have caused pain, i have been a bitch but i have also forgiven myself and have put my best foot forward into making my relationshops work.
when i love i love hard. when i hiurt it hurts me to my core.
my circle is small and its small by choice. i give all i have to those i love and i want thte same thing in return . i cant accept less than that becaeuse i deserve it.
you dont wake upo in the morning and greet your kids or husband with a dry ass hello and then turn around and greet the fucking neighbor witha huge hello and fucking cup of coffee. if you do your prioritues are out of order.
if im gonna be in a relationship i gotta be a priority